viewing

hey. i was at your viewing today. for both sessions. i cried. but so did everyone else. not sob. but tears of sadness. your family seems well. your mom is warm and strong. your dad is passionate and transparant. he wears his sadness on his shoulders where as your mom channels it like a lazer. i can tell they both loved you dearly. your brother was broken. i could see it in his eyes that he is still in shock. the bond you two have must be incredible. your new confines are sharp and classy. matches you. i have finally given you the shades you wanted so much. i will have some myself and will remember you when i wear it. your friends are kind and plentiful. making the effort to show up is already sign that you were loved by all. i was dressed well but understated. you would have been proud. tomorrow is my speech to all and i will try my best to deliver laughs as well as joys. there was some pettiness today. made me sick to see and hear that. some people just dont understand when to just suck it up and put the more important things first. weakness is quite unattractive. i will try my best to make you proud and make you laugh tomorrow. tey-mor was great. i can see why you liked the guy so much. i hope that "yo bro" made you giggle if not smile. no words can accurately describe the anger, pain, sadness, emptiness that i feel sometimes. how could you leave without us sharing one last laugh. i know, it was my fault for not returning your call. i will do my best to never put myself in that situation again. thanks for the lesson and the friendship. i will always miss you adam. always.