peace

hey adam. i had a long ass day. but it was a fairly good one. i went to your funeral, and waited for people to say their tributes then i got up there and said my thing. it was good. there was lots of love out there for you. the 54 east song was really good. i know you loved it too. your mom and dad are crazy strong and they both loved you dearly. same with your brother and all your other family members. now i know where you are residing and i will visit you from time to time. just you know. see what youre doing. kinda like how youd come over to my place from time to time. funny how things work out eh? you know kats girl friends are fucking dumb. this was neither the time or the place to be pulling what they did. but its ok. i was watching out for the other one. but my loyalties are with you. i wont choose sides, i'll just do what i feel is right. i dont understand many things, but when they buried you today, it was finally some sense of peace for me coz i know you are resting. without anyone touching you or screaming at you. or crying at you. i hope you truly find peace, and i hope i will eventually get some of that too. i left early because i felt like it was time for people to move on. to do their own thing. but i will always remember you. i got your dads number and i will keep in touch. reach. i got some important stuff done today, finally, its been a while since i did anything for myself. but i did that. it felt good to be productive. tomorrow continues my productive days. i will be reaching out to all those i care about so i wont have to go through what i went through with you. but i wont stand by and be annoyed by people as well. come say hi once in a while in my dreams ok? i miss talking to you. there werent that many people who could keep up with me. but you were one of a kind. can you imagine a 2 man show with just us? that would be funny as shit. anyway. i wont be writing to you everyday anymore. it is my way of moving on as well. so ya. stay in touch dude. i will miss you everyday. and i will love you everyday. may you finally rest in peace my dear friend.