2 weeks

so its been 2 weeks since you left. it doesnt get easier. but this is the new normal i suppose. i went to see you today. im sure you know. sat with you for a bit. sun was out. all was well. but i was sad. i try telling you about my days but the lack of response solidifies your departure. i dont think i will ever get used to it. i dont think i'll ever forget the way we used to talk. the ease in which we understood each other and how our jokes were quick and plentiful. and how our laughs would just keep growing with each joke. where will i ever find someone like you? i dont know. but when i do, they will remind me of you. adam. my twin brother from another. i went to your home today. saw your parents and probably some aunties i presume. we talked about you. was finally able to open up and share things about you which i felt uncomfortable sharing with others around. just me. and your family. talking about you. telling them how awesome you were. them telling me embarrassing things about you. things i would not stop making fun of you for if i knew when you were still around. wax? really? haha. but im not surprised. your dad told me a few things today about how i have some of you in me. im glad i do. so i'll go around more, maybe that will make them feel like youre still around somehow. in a sexy chinese man. i never really thought about it, but underneath it all, we were more or less the same. hard workers towards things we have a passion for. winners. jokers. optimists. qualities i am proud of. qualities that make me proud of you for having. qualities i will never lose because they are not only parts of me, but they are parts of you. i do not even question how close we could have gotten if we had time. it was inevitable. but now, we will have to take a little break until we meet up again. but until then, i'll keep having converstaions with you. even if you dont respond. i'll know youre listening. you touched me more than you will ever know. and today i learned you have done the same to many many others. im not surprised. and i miss you dearly. your father and i talked about your music and your ability and talent to make things sound original and awesome. i would love to have your mixes all over my ipod, car, everywhere. i dont know. it will make me know more about you. more about one of your passions that we did not really get to share too much of. i cant wait to listen to them all. and when i do. hope youre there with me and we can dance the night away. i'll see you again next week man. till then. watch over us ok.