heavy stuff

hey man. i went to your place today to help out. and all i did was fix some pictures. but at least i helped with something you know. met your mom and dad officially now. your family is so warm. and you were definitely loved by all of them. saw some of your cousins too. your dad is quite a character. totally warm, friendly and upbeat. but also hurt and confused and angry about your situation. i dont know why but when he started breaking down, i almost broke down too. thats why i had to leave. not because i didnt want to help out more. it was pretty heavy at moments. met your korean friend today as well. i know they are making a tribute song to you. if they are anywhere as good as you then its going to be sick. spent some time with katerina as well. im starting to understand why you loved her so much. shes smart. we found your tattoo today while looking for some other stuff. but new tribe isnt taking any emails, so either i'll go down tomorrow, or i'll go down next week and talk to dave - the dude that did my tattoo and see if he has time to do me another one. seeing all those photos of you made me realise how you were just an overall happy person. always looking at the positive stuff and brushing away and laughing at the negative stuff. went to your fb boards a little today, saw some more messages of love from people to you. you did shine bright and touch many. im gonna have to work on a speech at your funeral tomorrow. i so far have no idea what to say. so im just gonna talk about our experiences or even maybe just some stuff we both liked. but we'll see. and kat really does know you. kinda like how i know you, but better. the other one seems still a little lost in translation. adam will always be adam. and to truly know who adam was, that was a gift because it would make you happy. i guess i'll be saying some mushy stuff like that. dude. i hope i dont start crying and making a scene on monday dude. you would laugh at me for an entire week. but if its for you, and i cant hold it back, then well. laugh away. miss you man.