5 weeks

hey. ya ya. i know. i forgot to write this last night. fact is, i remembered after i turned off my computer. anyway. so i went on my usual routine to visit you and your family. and at your grave, which has caved in more than usual due to the ridiculous weather that weve been getting, someone that works there said hi to me. and apparently, your dad has talked to him about you and the guy said its really sad what happened. i agree. i see someone left you a cross and a whistle. not sure what the whistle is for, but im sure its to make noise like you did before you left. then i went by to see your parents. your mom is even more broken up than usual. you gotta get her back on her feet man. she needs to get out of the house and get back to her routines if possible. send her a sign, a dream or something. she needs it badly. your dad is doing a little better, at least hes up and talking to visitors. he also sometimes talks about not having anything to live for etc... but i kept reminding him that you would have wanted him and everyone else to live happily. to live life to its fullest potential. like you did. i know its not as easy said then done, but i think they have to force themselves to be positive. mourn you. but also honor you with living life with a passion. the same passion that you lived with. i think thats important. your brother bought you some kobe shoes. with like symbolic numbers on them. its pretty crazy. coz i know you would have loved those shoes. i think they might be a bit small for you though....not sure. but ya, i would also like it if your bro could get moving on those cds. i would like to get it spread out to our people you know. so everywhere we go, we rockin them beats. well watch over your family. they need it the most. i'll come by again next week as usual. by that time, i'll have the tattoo done and it will be permanent. i'll talk to you later adam. miss you.